Saturday, March 26, 2005
remember about a guy named yus...have i mentioned??? well nvm... ok he suddenly appeared sms-ing me askin for a favour...well he need me to print him some infos for da O-level thing..oh well..it was a small favour.. so i did.. i thought i can pass it on thurs after watching da movie but he cant.. ok im fine with it..kind of pissed a little..
so i meet him this afternoon.. he looks ok..but he has a blood clod on his left eye..
damn my guess was rite! he fight with his manager...his temper was really bad huh..
eee...i dont want to have a guy like him..so not my type..lol..one more thing, he looked at me one kind u knoe..hmm..like so desperado kind of eyes...hahah..
im damn irritated u knoe..he keeps on disturbing me saying im his wifelah..goin to get married with me one day.. he even ask me to tell my mum tt he'll come to send areca nut...OMG! this guy ar..really pissed me off...
Friday, March 25, 2005
Well..well..well..
i just came back...
catch a movie with waty n di...we watched Miss Congeniality 2. wow! it's awesome!
it was damn hilarious throughout da show. i felt my stomach was filled with too much air due to da over laughing..
on da way meeting waty at her work place, we have to walk past an alley of coffee shops from bugis junction.. i was talkin about some guys when di suddenly say "specky" lol.. i was wondering..wat da hell..im talking about this guys...hahahah..but i get her point when my eyes did saw da person whom di was talking about..lol..
sorry di..im a little slow in da brain u knoe..n so..we giggled thru our way..
damn...if waty didnt get this free tickets..i would be like a lazy pig at home sleeping, lying all da way waiting for da nite..or even sitting infront of da computer..
thanxs waty dear for inviting me out...lol..so romantic..Bluek!
Thursday, March 24, 2005
well...today deedi came over to my place..we supposed to do our project but it seemed a little...i dont knoe...but we ended up doin sumthin else...lol.. waited for james to be online so tt di can chat with him but he didnt.
i guess he must be sleeping..he's too tired chatting with me till 4 am there..
poor james...
oh well.. my sis was out for a 2days 1nite camp..YAHOOO...sleeping peacefully in da air-con room without having to fight for da comforter.
my dad invite di to join us for dinner..and so we went bukit panjang's banquete.. poor di...sumthin happened.. she broke he sandal.. and im like blur dont knoe wat to do..so i help her to carry her bag and help her to walk.
she managed to buy a trail slipper for 3dollar plus... better then nothin my dear...
hahah..but we enjoy ourself together rite?
after dinner, we send her back home...c..how nice..=p
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Yesterday, plan to meet up with da gurlz was cancel due to some causes.. well...me decided to msn and talk about da project online. Anyway,if i were to meet them, i cant be home late coz my dad is comin back home from Korea..n we'll be goin to da airport to pick him up..(we always do tt when he comes home from overseas..)
And so...after talkin to my gurlz..i chatted with james as usual..
he's online n he's always da first to say "hi". he was shocked to see me online though coz i told him tt im not goin to.. well..sometimes da things u plan wont turn out to be as what u had plan..i managed to chat with him while waiting for da rite time to take shower n get change..lol..i send him another pic of mine.. it's a pic of me n my gurlz...wow...he seemed interested..hahaha
guys always flirt..im not suprised though..
ok...
after picking up my dad, we went to eat at west coast...guess wat??? i saw my ex... oh god.. i was shocked to see him..n he too was shocked to see me.. he goes like "eh?" hahahah...ya..ya..i've changed...oh well..he still look da same to me though...only his bro ipin changed..he's getting more n more handsome..tall..tough body..ooouuh..wish i get tt kind of guy...
hai...mmmm...
[[[Dying of Boredom!!!]]] Monday, March 21, 2005
One whole day...doin nothin...slacking at home is all i did. Boring..
Im havin headache this mornin, felt like baggin it on da wall...hahah...
Goin online a little late..around 5 or 6 plus..
as usual to:
1)check my friendster
2)check my e-mail
3)play yahoo pool
4)chat with james
i can sit da whole day infront of da computer and do nothin else..at times i forgot to drink or eat...lol...i leave my computer only to go to da loo..=)
well talkin to james makes me smile almost all da time.. he's damn gd at jokes..
no jokes, no fun rite!
well, a few days back..we tried to communicate with each other through yahoo messenger using da microphone..da thing is...he could hear my voice but i cant hear his..hahah..all i heard was a BUZZING sound buzzing on my ear too loud.. It's not fair u knoe..anyway..things already happened..i did heard a voice sayin hello but it followed by tt stupid buzz..lol.read my horoscope on love match..
well, leo-aquarius..tend to admire each other in certain things..sumthin like tt.. and bla-bla-bla..lol.. su baby, u knoe eveythin rite! lol..
most my horoscopes are so true u knoe.. like abt da holiday thing..it says tt although my holiday is a last min kind of thing..im not supposed to cancel it but to go coz i deserved it.. but in reality, i choose not to..
*sigh
at times i suddenly felt like staying as a teenager all my life..lol
and another time i think da opposite..
"things" from my past started comin back this few days..i wonder why...
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Saturday, March 19, 2005
WWweeeeee......
WoW! still feelin tired...sleepy indeed...workin hard on my dance move for ndp.
well...im envy with my younger sis..she's a gd dancer..ya..ya...she took up dance as her CCA.. but atleast..im greatful and lucky..coz, she can teach me..heheheh..
Last nite was a blast! Finally, communicate with da rest of da motivators..we laugh like hell.. i felt like my tummy goin to burst..after da practice..we went to KFC and have our supper..coz it's already late..
Took da train back home..together with da rest of da motivators..
hey! kinda fun huh bein a motivator...=D
bla..bla..bla... ok now..
Today, as usual..i play online pool...and today..i make new fren..his name is James,20,america.. hhmmm..not bad lookin u knoe...coz he ask me to look at his pic album..
Di...i knoe when u look at his pic u will go, "hu-ga-ha-ga" or sumthin...hahahaha...sorry..juz jokin...=p
chatted with james at yahoo messenger..quite long...and im gettin worried coz it's time for him to sleep..he's havin a bio paper in da morning..at last he's goin to bed...but by da time he wanted to sleep it was like 3am at his country.he only sleep for 3 hours..he have to wake up at 6am...haiz..poor thing..hehehe...he was left behind by his groups of frenz coz most are from vietnam..and they keep on talkin in their language..
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
No! Oh God, please tell me tt im dreamin...
I received a call..an oversea no. I did called back and i heard a guy's voice.. damn my heart was beatin fast...i put da courage to say hello n asked him who called me...
he said tt he's masron's friend... i was in varying state of shock and trauma..i didnt get to talk tt long as my mum called me so i put down da phone..he called back after a short while..i pretend i didnt knoe him..he asked me to call him back but i said tt i cant coz my mum wont let me make oversea call..
Why??? tell me why muz u appear now?? after u left me in silence for 2 months!!!?? i don understand..still remember da last time i saw u at IMM..u suddenly came to me and gave me a warm hug tt i longed for..it is a coincidence tt it happened to be ur last 2days in spore..u were leaving soon to ur country..ya at tt moment i felt tt im goin to miss u alot..but not until i saw u again on my way home on da same day..my heart felt like exploding da moment i saw a gurl's pic as ur wallpaper while givin u den's no. u try to convince me by sayin it is not wat i thought n don misunderstood by da pic.. huh...u told me u goin for a week..but deep down in my heart says,"no..u're not!". i guess im rite!
i had a great fun with my gurlz..and i didnt even think about u..ehem..datz bcoz i was bz with my missions..lolz! haiz..one problem after another...
i juz don wan to think much about wat happened today coz it will only make me go insane..
why hendra never reply my sms..? could he be away for camp??
I gotta get through this....
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Monday, March 14, 2005
wah...feelin so damn tired.. my cousin wanted me to watch him in a cheer competition at suntec city... i wanted to but first my mum didnt let me..and anyway im feelin so lazy...but deep in my heart says i wanted to see.. lolz..wat to do so i slack at home watchin tv, eat, sleep, check friendster and now blog..
ok i think i knoe why im feelin damn tired..mayb bcoz of yesterday's dance.. ya..ya.. bein a motivator is not easy..some more bein a ndp motivator..lolz..tired u knoe..yesterday's dance was a little complicated but i tried my best. im happy if i got choosen..but if not..itz ok..coz i tried.. the thing is.. not enuf time to practice coz clementi was da second sch who have to be in da holding room..im so nervous siak...after dat i meet waty at her work place wif dee..n den jalan2 at bugis..
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Hey!! im damn happy coz he accept me in his frienster already.. hai..at last... i can rest in peace...eh i mean i can stop worryin..
.:yesterday molly sms me..she ask me whether im free in da evening..as usual..play pool at jurong east..im free but i don dare to ask my mum's permission..coz i've been comin home lately after meetin her. this cannot go on..coz i have to gain back my mother's trust towards me..hey..im a gd gurl u knoe..heheheh:.
Thursday, March 10, 2005
hhhmmm..first thing first..im happy coz i got my computer back! Total of 3 days without computer..i felt so dead..hahah like real only..so touchin siak..
now..to my malancholy life..im young yet naive..yes im a dreamer..a teenage gurl full of dreams and wish tt she's in her fantasy world and be happy without worrying abt any problems..
i add this one person in friendster but i dont think he's goin to accept it coz.. da last time he logged in was yesterday..but he still not yet accept me..why??? nvm..
sometimes i felt tt bein alone is da best but sometimes i feel tt bein alone is so boring. no life..i really miss all those sweet moments in me..
at home..nothin much. always listen to my mum nagging to my sis..she can tahan but not me..last time, every nite i cried..thinkin abt wat happen each day..is this due to depression?? but atleast now i can control..i think.
well..today i forgot to bring da house keys and i have to wait for my mum to come back from da mosque. so i decided to buy drink and sit under da block and listen to my mp3. Lucky me, she came back not tt long and ask me to check da letterbox.. juz as i thought! i received 2 letters from prison..
i quickly trash it in my bag and told her tt there are no letters.. i quickly proceed to my room.. da thing is tt..in tt letter..he stated tt..tt was his 3rd and 4th letter..weird..i only received 1 from him before.. not da 2nd..hhmm..
OMG!! did my mum received his letter and didnt gave it to me? or he missed count his letters? Haiyo..ok..another problem is...i think he likes me..he even ask me watz my answer..am i considering him or not..wat am i supposed to say? im in a state of turmoil rite now..he booked me da next day after his releasin date..he wanted me to accompany him do some shoppin. urgh! haiz..
dont know wat to do....my feelings toward him is only like none??? i dont have any feelin towards him. i treat him not more den frenz. oh god, y muz this happen to me..?? i always get wat i didnt wan.. boo..hoo.. =(
Saturday, March 05, 2005
it has been 3days im feelin unwell.. havin headaches..flu..throat pain..
well, visited da doctor and he gave me some medicines..
it doesnt really help anyway..juz need more rest..
oh ya, tomorrow morning.. if confirm im goin to simei ite for ndp motivator.. hmm..hope ihave alot of fun..=p
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hhmm..juz remembered...recently..i think last nite, rom sms me.. he wish me gd nytez with syg2 sey..i dont wanna say anthin..i juz scared tt without noticing, i had lead him on..u knoe guys sumtime misunderstood by da way we treat them..
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
yesterday, i meet waty..dearest fren of mind..hai..miss her so much! we play pool yesterday..molly supposed to meet us but she cant make it...so sad..wat to do..
after playin pool..both of us go to pasar malam. we have alot of fun..not to worry..coz we always have fun together.. laugh arnd and such.. wish she's in da same course as me..but it's ok coz meet her once in a while...
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Juz now..they really pissed me off! ok i don knoe who's at fault but its up to u all to decide..first, i was sittin as usual next to dee in da lab when amin push da chairs to me.. i pushed back..at da same time fik say "fizah! kau tak cukup kain?" wat is he tryin to say? im wearin short skirt?? gurlz...am i wearin a short mini skirt?? are u insane?? plz open ur eyes! ofcoz i cant take wat he had juz said coz i felt insulted..he's like tryin to say im similar to those bitches out there who is happily walkin wif their short mini skirt without any shame...out of anger i shouted at them..i didnt mean to and i dont want to but i cant tolerate anymore..i can still relax when fik say tt but i cant stand it when im keepin quiet to cool myself..there goes another person tryin to make da situation worse..
do i have da choice? ya! there are pants but i have difficulties in findin da size.. is it hard for u people to understand?? Fine!! u all dont have to!!
*i'll accept if my skirt are really short..and i know how short is short..guyz woudnt be understand gurl like me who have bigger thighz.. =( u wouldnt knoe how much i suffer in life..if only i can make a wish tt will come true..
my wish would be..let them be in my shoe for a month..and see.. will they be enjoyin their life or suffer!
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Uurgh!! i felt like dying..oh god..plz take dis stomach pain away from me.. my tummy achin and twistin..throat pain, headache!!!!
The girl who is so lost without you.