Wednesday, September 28, 2005
** I know this few days...my post suckz...i keep on talkin about this particular him..im so tense..i hope he'll understand my decision..
I was having my last lesson.. checkin out da attendance for da month, when my hp rang...it was Yanti... i thought she wanted to ask me on some drama issues..but instead she wanted to report somethin... =)
Well...she said tt he called her to ask things about me...
i dont mind tt but he was asking...how to tackle me and such... DANG!!! so all this while he had fall for me...Omg!!! It's true tt he like me... See!!! See what i mean???
i dont mean to hurt people...but certain occasion i have to.. but...
hai...
he's my brother's friend..i dont what both of us in a relationship...i prefer friends...i just couldnt accept him as my special someone...im sorry..
Sunday, September 25, 2005
Havin my drama training @ Pasir Ris Park... nice atmosphere..
Ouh...ya...there were this 3 new girlz joining us... saw them first thing when i reached pasir ris at da control station standing with Aziema...
hmmmm...What do u think??? i dont really like 2 of da girlz.. both age about 17...OMG...i just dont knoe how to explain...
Today, feelin a little depressed...coz he was there... he was wearing this sunglass which shows reflection..so cant really see his eyes; cant see at what he's lookin at..i did joke around with him..and used his sunglass as a mirror...
but hell hey..tt's normal joke what?? he keep jokin around with me calling me 'dear' and 'honey'...Haiyo!!!
Again not trying to be mean just because of his appearance...
but..please...dont do this to me...i dont mind bein your friend...
if u ask me why....i simply couldnt answer tt...
im sorry...
Saturday, September 24, 2005
Just came back from watchin a theater at cairnhill Art Centre titled 'Kelab Dangdut'. It was fantastic..superb!!
Synopsis:
Before becomin 'Mummy sally', she started working in a japanese n chinese club when she was 17. She got married in 18 and gave birth to a daughter named Sabrina when she was 19.. 2yrs later,they divorced coz her husband was always in and out from prison. When Sabrina was 14..she often followed her mum to her work place..and when she's 18..she work like her mother in da same club.. now she was known as Vicky.
As years goes by, mummy sally realised tt something was not right in her life when one day vicky told her she wanted to be 'Mummy' like her.. but everything was too late..
Although da stage was a little small n humid..but they make it in a way tt we as an audience could feel da atmosphere in a dangdut club..
Supposingly...yanti,sam n i was goin but in the end i ended up goin with sam only.. yan coulnt make it last min.. and i was pissed.
called her alot of times and even msg her and yet she didnt reply me..
Nvm...so da plan was tt i accompany my mum to go massage then from there i go n meet sam @ NP..he called me n say tt he got a bad news... tt was his personal cab broke down and we have to take public cab...
in my mind i was thinking-
1- I dont have cents how???!!! only 3buckz?? can survive ar?
2- Why must all this happened to me...on my way to look for bus 61 i got lost..
3- How??!! taking cab with him n me..not only tt..im gonna be with him, sitting with him throughout da show!!
DANG!!!
this is a major prob..i hope somebody come to rescue me..
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Firstly, i must thank Su-h and Wan Zhen for da lovely gift... it's small but meaningfull.. =) i really appreciate it...Nice!
Letter F means Fieza rite??? hahah..
Hmmm...i must admit tt im so paiseh to recieve your gift..cause we or i shall say..i didnt have da chance to celebrate your birthday..i also didnt get u anythin...well i owe u one..
Thanxs alot..and our friendship means alot to me..
Sunday, September 18, 2005
It was my second week of training...and im nervous cause i heard there will be other members there...but as i reached there...i only saw 3 guyz..my bro,najib & sam..
well..there's nothing to be afraid about huh...
so yan n i were talking to each other..talking abt da number of people.. both of us came out with this..'>=5'..
Today, we did more activities then last week...we did some warming up followed by some relaxing exercise.. it really helps to clear our mind and makes us feel light...
well, overall it was great!
i think i got da feelin tt this one person trying to grab my attention.. but i knoe tt i dont have any feelings towards him... dont misunderstand me if im being nice to u.. i treat u only as a friend and not more then that...
haiz.. i love makin friends..and i prefer an opposite sex but i dont think tt kind of friendship works...cause atleast one will fall in love.. izzit?? mayb it does exist..but it's rare..
Friday, September 16, 2005
Feelin kinda low..
I had this dream last night which makes me feelin worst.. It has been quite sometime tt someone had not sms-ing me.. I did'nt really think abt it too hard. Only im thinking abt my discman...hai..when will i get it back.
I dreamt tt he called me and gave me his new hp number...and he also apologised.
But never did mention abt my discman..heart pain right now..
i hope he will call me...there are alot of things to be settle...
Well..i have a confession to make...
i knoe i always show my temper to my sis at time..not because of what but she make me to.. her attitude makes me go crazy.. im a bit naggy at home..i always find my sis's fault...
But a part of all tt...she have a nice side of her...she's willing to help me..
she tend to do gd things to me..sometimes i wonder...why she did all tt to me??? mayb because im her elder sis..but why cant she stop making me angry at her by not cleaning up da room..help me with da chores..etc...
To my dearest sis,
Thanxs for being there when im low..i knoe at times im too harsh on u...well..it's for your own good..Trust Me..
Please listen to your mum if u dont intend to listen to my advices... she's your mum and ours. i dont like da way u threat her..it's too much... i dont want to see her worried and cry because of u...thanxs to them tt most of da chores was given to me...
u only have to come home from sch early...
Cant you do tt??? i appreciate if u change...not all..but da attitude...
thanxs..
Love,
Sis...
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Hey..hey... I went for my first drama class...heheh...it was fun.. Lucky i asked Yanti to join in with me...although there were only 5 of us...we did enjoy.. hhmm... im so eager to start..hahah...
we did some devise play...brainstorming ideas and such..
Thursday, September 08, 2005
heaven...
hahah...finish sch at 10 today...went home straight..
well..still feelin tired.
Yesterday was my worst day ever.. abt da zouk thing rite..my dad let me go after all da explanation i had made.. then i thought it's over.. not until im in da train at clementi, i realised i forgot to bring my invitation card along...Dang!! nightmare man!!! i took a taxi at clementi n went back home...ask my sis to throw down da card with some cash...
then i thought of takin da train to shaw tower to meet waty..but then i realised i was running out of time..so i continue my journey with tt same cab. total..i have to pay 18 buckz..alot rite?? damn im broke...
reached there arnd 730pm..received waty's call when i was abt to step in shaw tower...she told me last min she got customer..not one but two...tt part im getting a little pissed cause in da cab just now my dad called and again ask me abt zouk..i knoe itz a club but yesterday was meant for da party.. they sell alcohol after 1030..duuhhh..
ok..then i waited till 8pm..still no sign of her.. 1hr had just past..damn..i sure missed alot...i felt like crying and shout at da top of my lung..
finally she finished by 830..waited for cab was HELL.. we walk all da way to da taxi stand at bugis junction. bt then..still have to queue...
Arrived there by 9 plus...went inside for half an hour just on time for da result of miz 17...dissapointed coz we're late..then we didnt get any door gift.. =(
BUT..after what happened..there's a miracle..
i mean..while we were sitting down at a table by da stair..there were plastic bags which we saw people carryin it here n there on da next table..waty ask me to take n so i did coz i didnt see anyone near it..so i guess they left it there..
guess what??? it was da door gift!!! and itwas perfectly for both of us!!! one bag for me n da other for waty.. we were so greatfull n thank god for what had happened.. so we left zouk feelin happy not disappointed..
this is what i get in da bag..
waty & me in Zouk..itz dark though..
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Im so disappointed with my dad..
ok i think im havin my syntoms...im feelin emo again this month...
I won a ticket to seventeen's birthday party...and out of so many places they make it at Zouk..
My dad couldnt accept tt it was at zouk... u knoelah parents..hai..
but tt day it was meant for those aged 16 and above..and only with pass.. there must be some rules right.. sometimes i wish..my parents were sporting like mummy...
ouh..and im not goin to be home late like at 1am or something...da party ends at 10.. and further more, im schoolin da next day..and waty is working..ofcause we want to hurry back home... haiyo!!
one more thing..I WANT MY DISCMAN BACK!!!
How am i goin to contact tt son of a BITCH!!
He's hp is not workin anymore..im feelin so stupid right now..
The girl who is so lost without you.