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The girl who is so lost without you.

Desires

-Be with my hubby forever..
-Make my parents proud..
-Have my own car(like real huh?)
-Try not to be slow thinker(want to be smart)
-To take up make up courses

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Aif
Di
Liyz
Syazyra
Khai
Minlilin
TPK
Zarf
Haida
Zhen
Zi
Zana

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SCAR
Sunday, October 29, 2006


What a bad day..
My family and I was visiting to one of my dad's relative house at Holland today and it was pretty excited to see alot of cats loitering around the area. I touched one of the stray cat and at first it was ok but suddenly it bite and scratch me. Guess what then? I got a scar on my lower palm and it's quite deep. But im ok. Im fine. Ofcourse the pain is an excruciating one (what do u think??).

-Sign Off @ 11:34 PM :)

Open house
Saturday, October 28, 2006

Feeling tired now after a long day at home. There are still left over food on the table and i dont think i can eat it anymore. Too much of the same food makes me sick. I dont know why i see most of the small kids that come to my house eat noodle without gravy(hhhmmm..weird). Not only the small kids but a few of the others too. My mum cooked Mee Rebus. What? They dont know how to eat proper Mee Rebus? u must be kidding me right? Nevermind. It's ok. I dont give a damn anyway. The only think was im tired. My sis wasnt at home to give us a hand. She out with her friends(as usual..she's not the helpful type. Hahaha).

Anyway, thanks Hubby for coming to my house..
U look perfect just now(*winkz). Miss u so much!!
Next week, its my turn to go to your open house(heheh).

-Sign Off @ 11:52 PM :)

Friday, October 27, 2006

Been at home from yesterday and im feeling damn bored.
This year, Hari Raya for me wasnt as happening as last year and the previous year.

**Tomorrow, we're having an open house. So tonight, im going to be a little busy doing some preparation. And tomorrow, it's going to be 'The Most Enervated Day' ever.

Im looking forward to meet my hubby..It has been quite sometimes that we have not met each other and i really miss him so much(trust me). So, be well-dressed for tomorrow aight. =)
Cant wait to see u.

-Sign Off @ 8:11 PM :)

Tuesday, October 24, 2006





Selamat Hari Raya to all Muslims.... =)

-Sign Off @ 11:31 PM :)

Monday, October 23, 2006

Went to Batam yesterday to buy some Raya stuff(just accompany my parents actually..). We actually plan to take the ferry back home before 7pm. Plan to break fast at Singapore then go Geylang to search for flowers. But as we reached there, we tend to forget about the time(as usual shopperholic..ish2).At 5.55pm(indonesia time), time to break our fast.. Well, by then we know that we're already late. So we rush as we eat just like in the army camp. Hahaha.After eating we rush out and took the cab heading to Mega Mall. Actually im looking for a small handbag. Due to lack of time, we were like rushing our way through and it feels like we're in the Amazing Race(serious..).Apart from the rushing, i managed to get myself not 1, not 2 but 3 contact lenses. Heheh.. Nah...actually FreshLook is having a promotion which is buy 2 get 1 free. Thought of taking turqoise but the only colours left was like green,purple and hazel. The most patheticly was this three is the last one. So i have no choice but to take those three.. Atleast got green..=) Then again rush to the ferry terminal. Shocked to see the long queue. So we join in the queue while my dad went to get the tickets. A few minutes later he came to us saying that there are no more tickets left (Gosh! Major situation here). My sis supposed to go to school, and we have alot of work to do at home. So sad. We stay overnite at a hotel nearby and will take the 1st ferry in the morning at 6.10am(singapore time).We reached home at 9.15am today.. Feeling tired.

Poor hubby..sorry if u worried over the disappearance of my family and i for a day after a trip to Batam(hehehe). My sis and i were worried that Azhari and u will think that something happened to us. We really wanted to msg but our phone have no reception. Sorry ya hubby..

-Sign Off @ 11:43 AM :)

Friday, October 20, 2006


Yey! I get a new handphone from my dad.. Thanks dad!! Love u! Muachkz!

My sis was jealous when my dad bought this phone. Well, what can i do? I helped him alot.. I deserve it right? =)
Thanks again dad.

-Sign Off @ 10:29 PM :)

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Hey, feeling emotional today. PMS..yah.
Well, i was having my cramps(awful one). But still, i help my mum to clean the kitchen. My house was pretty messy. It seems like there's no ending to chores. Poor me. Thanks to a "very helpful" sis of mine.

Dont really got the mood to talk to anybody today. So i spent most of the time listening to the radio or watching the tv.

Yesterday's training was ok. I mean, rushing(a little) cause we have to catch up with the new steps. I was actually feeling nervous cause i imagine how its going to be on the actual day.
Hhhmm..Hopefully, i can get the steps in my head and will not mess up on the actual day.

-Sign Off @ 11:40 PM :)

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Here i am sitting infront of my lap top blogging while taking a short break from transcribing.I received my last pay slip yesterday and sad to see the amount.
Haiz..Anyway, yesterday,helped my sis with her new blog. She's been bugging me for this past few days.

Today, felt a little tired, dont know why. Lack of sleep? Dont think so. I had enough(i think so). Well, feeling lazy to go for Chingay practice tonight. Not been attending it for like three or two weeks. But it's not on purpose. I wasnt feeling well last week.
I was just planning with my sis that today i wanted to go Geylang to search for some stuff. Ended up, my plans are all ruin.. =(
Thanxs eh!

-Sign Off @ 11:34 PM :)

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Hey...been busy lately making cookies and cleaning up the house.
Just received a call from my dad saying that he's not coming back tomorrow cause there are no flight back to Singapore tomorrow.
He try to be back on the 19th if there's a flight. Hopefully there is...

**I have a problem right now. Have not finish doing transcribing and i think i've to rush myself here. This month is my last month doing trancribing and after this, i;ve to find a new job. =(

-Sign Off @ 12:29 PM :)

Friday, October 13, 2006

Thought i was feeling better than yesterday but it seems like it's getting worst. Im having fever and also still having running nose. But apart of my sickness my mum still want me to help her to do cookies. And so i help without complaining.

Helmi was out of Tekong today. He's unwell and was given 2days MC. So he have to be back in camp on the Sat(heard he wanted to take another day off so that he can be back on the Sun).
He SMS me and wanted me to break fast with him but too bad i cant. Im busy just now.
Hope u're not upset about it again...
It's not on purpose or cause i dont want to meet u and so i gave an excuse(Sorry sikit..). Im not like that.
Anyway, im not feeling well.

**I wasnt really sure why my mum have this difficulties with letting me out even with my friends.. Not to say what but my bro had been breaking fast outside with his gf like a a few times and my sis have been going out last week and the previous week.. Normal days after school she still can meet her bf. But me? Im like stuck at home doing all kinds of chores. I can only meet him every Sat plus if im free.
Sometimes i tried to take it in a positive way by saying to myself..
Dont worry Fizah. Dont take it too hard. Dont u know that your mum love u more than the rest??? So she's really particular with whom u hang out with and such. She dont want me to be spoilt.
Hhhmmm...But at times..i dont know. Things are complicated or i shall say my life is complicated???

-Sign Off @ 2:36 PM :)

-UnWell-
Thursday, October 12, 2006

Having this fatigue disease(it's just a flu...duuhhh..). Ooopz! Did i make it sound like...major illness???(heheh..)

Anyway..My head gets heavy this afternoon and i was like lying down all the way till 6pm. Taking a day off from making Hari Raya's cookies(u dont want me to sneeze in it right???)

Well, nothing else happen actually. Supposed to go Geylang with my sis but what to do..Maybe, because of the bad weather. One more problem. This month, beauty spots everywhere..Dang!! What must be the cause of this on my face??? Lack of water? Vitamins? Minerals? Nutrients? Hmmm.. My mum adviced me to drink more plain water and yeah..that's what im doing now as im typing.
=)

-Sign Off @ 2:38 PM :)

What happened??
Monday, October 09, 2006

Meet Waty & Am to break fast together. We went Bazaar at Geylang.
I miss Waty so much!! It has been like ages we've not been meeting one another. Really enjoy my time yesterday but....

Hubby, why??? What wrong with you today?? The way u sms me was like...i dont know. But, i can sense something is not right from the start. Called u but u wasnt on the mood to talk(u dont sound like the usual Helmi). So, i decided to put down the phone making excuses that i need to go to the loo. What i did was to feed my cat and sit down blogging here while wondering what have i done wrong? What crime have i commited? Im totally confused cause i didnt do anything wrong(from what i can rememberlah). I'll call him again soon..Hopefully he sound better then just now.

-Sign Off @ 2:57 PM :)

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Just came back from Iftar at Bedok, Segar Restaurant. Nice food they served.

This Iftar was organised for 3 different groups which are Variasi, Ayunda & ofcourse TPK. Had a great time breaking fast together. Too bad that Zira and Saliza could make it.

To Zira, sorry to hear about what happened to your cell phone. Hmmm.. Dont be sad aightz.
By the way, your certificate is still with me. So, later i try to find the time to pass it to u.

By the time the Iftar end, it was like nine plus and im like supposed to meet Helmi. Hmmm, it's like getting tougher each week to meet him( I can feel it). But, we still managed to meet just now although it was a short one. Im sorry hubby. U already on your way to Bukit Batok while i sms u saying that im still at Bedok waiting for the train(can tell how anxious u are to meet me).

The next to weeks will be very busy. Im busy making cookies and cleaning up the house. I was told by my mum that this week is my last week to go out. Monday onward, i have to stay at home do my chores(sigh). I cant believe it. How pathetic could this be???

-Sign Off @ 2:45 PM :)

No Promises - Shayne Ward lyrics
Saturday, October 07, 2006

Currently, this is my favourite song im listening to. It makes me high.... Hahaha

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

Here tonight
Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Everytime you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you you to know girl.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

I don’t want to run away, I want to stay forever, thru Time and Time..
No promises

I don’t wanna run away, I don’t wanna be alone
No Promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love

No promises

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight

-Sign Off @ 5:18 AM :)

Urrghh!!! Hate lectures!!!
Friday, October 06, 2006

Woke up at 415 am to sahur and after that...lecture time!!! Thanks to my sis.. yeah always the trouble maker.. Yesterday, she make my dad angry. She was on the phone with her boyfriend all the way. Usually my dad was ok with her talking on the phone but yesterday was because they just met under the void deck for a group study.

Her everyday routine was like:
1)Woke up in the morning to go to school
2)Come back home from school
3)Talking on the phone
4)Sleep
5)Dinner
6)Then sleep till the next morning without helping me cleaning the kitchen up.

So everyday the same thing over and over again.
Her laziness pissed my dad off. So when he talk about her, he'll surely involve my bro and i in. Still remember he was saying this. "U think i like with what u guys are like now??? Proud with your partners. I dont like. U think i keep quiet, i like ah???"
My dad concerned about his family name. Hhhmmm..
My mum was the opposite of my dad. She said that she dont mind us having special someone and that plus we know how to take care of ourself. She's much more understanding.
Sometimes i think that my dad doesnt have sense of humour cause he doesnt joke with us. Serious all the way. We dont dare to share any probs with him cause he seems unapproachable.

-Sign Off @ 8:30 AM :)

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Been cleaning up my room for the past 3 days and it still look messy(more messy). There are too many stuff or should i say junks in there??? My mum called it a pig sty. (hahaha, which makes me mad at times.)
Well, i myself not sure..
I cleared all my unused books and the rest are all my sister's stuff.. Asked her to clean up the room was f*cking damn hard. It's like to asking someone to jump off a cliff. Im serious!
Haiz...hopefully she get it cleared by tomorrow.

Talked to Faris today and he was talking about his girlfriend. Poor u Faris. It's ok. (Bunga bukan sekuntum.) Well, ok maybe it is easy for me to say to u to find another one. Yeah, i know it's hard to forget her. Dont stress up buddy aightz!

Was online with Faris and Hubby called. Sorry dear for not answering your call. I cant just simply cut Faris's conversation. (Trust me, it's tough)

Anyway, i was actually planning to break fast with Fik and Mail but i dont seemed to see the rest are free. I asked Di but she cant make it so im afraid i would be missing the time spend with this two guys.

Hey guys, it's like so soon u guys have to serve the nation. (hahah) Im going to miss u guys very much! Miss the good old times Fik when three of us(u,Faris & i) play pool and lepakz together.
But it's ok, i cant wait to see u with your new hairstyle. (hehehe. Mesti cute kan??? Cam Abg Faris kiter)
Ok, so hopefully u guys dont forget me. =)
If u want to lepakz together, just holler at me aightz!

-Sign Off @ 2:55 PM :)