Friday, October 31, 2008
Im sorry hubby...
Im sorry for each and every fight
Im sorry for being immature
Im sorry for being too emotional
Im sorry for being so possessive
Im sorry, im not perfect
Im restless here, repantant
Will u forgive me?
Im sorry for hurting u
Its not what i meant to do
Im sorry that i cry for u
Im sorry because i cant live without u
Im restless here, repantant
Will u forgive me?
Im so sorry and i really mean it deep
I never meant to hurt you
Is there anything that i can do
To make it up to you?
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Cloudy everywhere
part of my brain turns hazy
I couldnt think a single bit
Am i at the right path?
I need u
I always do
bring me the light
lead me to the brightest side
lead me there..
lead me there..
The content i saw hurts
Yes i swear
Fluttered i was
Maybe im being too much
I hated myself for doing this..
But i love u..
I love u with all my heart!
Tears came rolling
Tears of sincerity
Never will i stop loving u.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Happy Birthday Abah!!!!
Hey it's my father's birthday...
Actually hubby and i plan to celebrate double birthday celebration for hubby's father and my father's birthday together. But what to do? My father had to go Japan tomorrow.
=(
So, today's plan was kind of rushing. Bro decided to have dinner at Sakura International at Jurong West Stadium. I thought of Seoul Garden. But bro said its far for him and a little troublesome. Ok, whatever. Im fine with anything.
Hubby and i bought a pair of Fifth Avenue shoes for my father. Actually, hubby bought it to be precise.
*winxs
Thanks hubby because he's happy with the gift.
Knock My Head Hard On The Wall
Wake up!
What have i done?
Im so egocentric
Paranoid maybe
But I love u from the bottom of my heart
Yes i do and its true
Maybe im over reacted
Maybe im over protected
Without realising im the cause of this
Forgive me for what i've done
Knock me hard and make me wake up
Saturday, October 18, 2008
How's your cramp Kak Yani???
Hopefully u are doing fine today.
Went to Cik Alos's house, Cik Niah's and lastly Cik Nora's house.
My mum and dad, my bro and Kak Yani and hubby and i.
Six of us.
Afetr visiting, we wen Tampines to pick sis up. If yesterday she came home together with us then it wouldnt be so troublesome. Why cant she just think.
I find her so egocentric.
I really hope she will change and be a mature person.
Just dont want to see my parents in pain.
How could she be so cold... Friday, October 17, 2008
Heart keeps on bleeding
Tears keeps on dripping
Ears tired listening
Mouth exhausted
But will never give up
Things become much more complicated now.
Yesterday's mission failed.
Twice defeated.
On Wednesday, try to bring her back home from Tampines but halfway through she fled away. How undaunted she is.
And yesterday,we went to Tampines again. Again, we failed. But this never make my parents give up. Especially my mother. She's eager to see this particular guy named Rizal.
I hate this kind of guy. Being with somebody's daughter but dont want to talk to their parents. I called them chicken!
If he didnt do anything wrong, then why scared?
Now she left my father cracking his head thinking what he else he should and could do now. He had launch a report to the polis about her disappearance.
Sigh
Now, im waiting for her to come home. She promise me that she'll be coming back today in the morning at 9am. But now, she's late. She said she wanted to look for a job today and need me to accompany her.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
This monotonous life is killing me bit by bit.
Furthermore been hearing alot of relationship problems from other people makes me fear for my own affinity.
Just too afraid to lose hubby.
Anyway, coincidently watching Indonesian drama and its about a girl who suffered mentally due to depression after received a wedding invitation card from her boyfriend. They had been together for 6 years and yet this could happen. And her boyfriend only knows his wife to be for only a month.
Weird right?
But maybe he's just not her match.
I hope that im strong enough to face all the upcoming problems in the future time.
History keeps on repeating.... Saturday, October 11, 2008
Sis never came back home last night. Last seen 12 am. Told mum she wanted to meet old primary school friend. But we get to know she's not. She went somewhere else. Somewhere we ourself dont know.
Somewhere that we are not able to contact easily.
Sigh.
Cant she see how much damaged done by her. Curing wounded heart wasnt easy.
Furthermore, its her parents heart.
I can no longer bear the agony my parents face.
I never gave up with her. Never stop lecturing her.
What else can i do?
=(
I thought yesterday she seemed to be ok.
Sigh..
Thursday, October 09, 2008
I've been counting the days..
How long this will go on?
I understand he's working. But i thought yesterday he said that there's not much work to be done and he wanted to go home.
He didnt SMS me it doesnt matter but he called me when he's on his way back home halfway because he had to answer another call. It's not me because still vivid in my mind what he said last. He said he'll call me back. I did waited up till i reached home and i SMS him telling him im home. I knew the moment he didnt respond means he's asleep. Maybe he's tired. Fine then.
Oh ya. Hubby said he called me back and my hp was off. It wasnt but nevermind. Maybe the reception was bad. Hahahah.
I was not feeling well. I keep on sneezing all the way at vivo. And im tired. Head was spinning around and my sister just could stop making the whole family busy thinking about her. 2 days away from home with no news. Think she's the BIG THING i guess. What can i do/. She still my sister. Our advise was ignored.
So after helping my mum with doing some calling of her "friends" with some temper in me, i took 2 tablets of panadol flu and doze off.
Monday, October 06, 2008
Scrumptious food for dinner.
Yummy....
Actually, we didnt took our lunch yesterday. Things didnt turn up as what we had plan. Wanted to visit alot of house but most of them are not at home.
What to do..Ended up we went to Toa Payoh Hub walking around to kill time waiting for maghrib to pass. Ouh...and i bought a pair of heels. My sister too.
But...i realised one diamond was missing and told father about it. He's the one who went back to the shop for an exchange. Guess luck wasnt by my side. That was the last piece. But she is nice enough to issue a receipt and asked me to collect my new pair of shoe at Clementi.
Last house was...hubby's house. Blue baju kurung....
U look great! Handsome.... =)
Had fun yesterday...too bad Kak Yanie cant make it. She missed the good food.
She got tangled up with assignments and cant make it. Its ok. Maybe its a blessing in disguised. I pray that u pass with flying colours and become a successful teacher.
Sunday, October 05, 2008
Awake by hubby's call asking for help on his portnet.
As i was about to close my eyes back again in the living room infront of my laptop, father came out from his room requesting for breakfast. So i have to prepare breakfast for him and the others. Sis as usual not awake yet up till now.
Ok, today's agenda is to go out visiting again and then go to hubby's open house. Cant wait to see u hubby.
Yesterday morning, i was supposed to go to othe saloon and get my hair done. I couldnt make it on time cause i could find a time slot to go. My mother do some cooking for Kak Yanie and her family who came yesterday. So i have to help her out. Sigh.
The girl who is so lost without you.
