_my love for you;

Thursday, January 05, 2012

Am i good for nothing???

Am i not good enough for anything???

-Sign Off @ 11:33 PM :)

Tuesday, January 03, 2012

It has been so long...and finally, I'm blogging again.
Just to let out things that have been stuck in my mind. Sometimes i just cant let say it out to anyone, anybody face to face.

Things at work getting pretty bad now. The situation is unbearable. I cant handle it. Its beyond my control. I don't know how to voice out to my in-charge. I don't even know how to start at the first place.
All i did was to cry and cry. I cried in the office when there were nobody around. I cried during my toilet break. I cried in the bus on my way back home. I cried myself to sleep.
At night, i have nightmares about work. I dreamt about work. Is this some sort of a sign??
I don't feel like going to work tomorrow. Seriously. I'm sick of sitting in front of my PC and staring at it for the whole day. Why cant i have a day to rest. Everyday i have to rush my work. Everyday i have to follow up.

Too many things happen at the same time.

Today, hubby told me the HDB flat at Clementi were all taken.
Disappointed but we still have to come out with another plan. New BTO or resale flat.
Gosh! $$$$$

Our wedding shots are also having problem. Package stated with small album but we still have to pay for the designs???
WTF???!!!

Wedding date is getting near. I've yet to settle my stuff.
Sigh.

Why all this happen to me~??
=(

-Sign Off @ 8:14 PM :)

Sunday, June 19, 2011

I knew it! I always knew that she's jealous of me. Especially that day when i accompanied hubby out with his colleagues.

Crazy B said that the purse hubby going to buy for me is expensive and not worth buying. I was having flashes of me punching her face. How i wish i really do that! Crazy B even make me angry that day for giving my Hubby carry her laptop bag!! Who is she anyway?? Anak Sultan ker???

Go to Hell!!

-Sign Off @ 11:34 PM :)

Saturday, April 09, 2011

Yes, i can see changes in him. I could feel his sincerity & love.
But sometimes i just don't understand why.. He cant blame me for behaving the way i did. "I'm angry at them & not you."

He never took my side but instead he broke my heart by saying something that he's not supposed to. It hurts me so badly. How can he say that?
I cant hold back my tears. All i did was to cry my heart out in the ladies. It took me quite sometime to cool down and show my face outside.

Take their side then...if you think your friends do mean alot to you.
Cant call nor SMS when you're with them too right?
You tell me~
And i bet there will be more dinner with colleagues.

-Sign Off @ 12:03 PM :)

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Sometimes, i just dont get the whole situation.

I dont remember saying im too tired to talk. Too sick to listen & too busy to respond.

Is it just me or what???

Huh?

What im feeling:

- Lost
- Alone
- Awful
- Dingy

Nah~ i dont know what else to say...
Am i desperate??? Sort of.. Am i wrong to say im desperate for your love & attention???
Im just being jealous at times....
*sigh

Only God knows how i feel.

-Sign Off @ 9:45 PM :)

Monday, February 21, 2011

Full of unfairness...

Lately, I just don't have mood in the office. I'm not exaggerating here. But she's trying to find fault with me. Not once but twice.
So im not supposed to talk to anybody who stop by and talk to me at my desk??

Hello, im still doing my work. The weirdest thing was that she can go to anybodys table to talking & laughing away about any other topic better then work. Isnt that good???

Back at home i received a call from hubby while I was listening to songs on my laptop. I know he is unwell.He told me to lower the volume which i was doing it but at the same time i was disturbing him, saying that he sometimes do the same too but when i ask to lower the volume he didnt. Must be due to his health he cant accept it. *Sigh.. Nevermind.
Just get well fast hubby!

I dont want to fight.

-Sign Off @ 10:11 PM :)